My Hubby loves me

My hubby does my injections. I don't like the idea of putting a needle in myself..I can't even look when he does it and much prefer to close my eyes. I have done them myself in the past, but i don't like it and it usually takes a while to get the courage to actually stab myself. So last night I was dreading having to do it myself at work. But my lovely hubby left his poker game to come into work just to inject me..nawwww.. He loves me and I loves him

IVF cycle #3

Started stims today. Even though Ive had the pill and synarel over the last month  I don't really feel like Ive started IVF until the stims. First stim went well. Ive felt some weirdness in the side we injected (DH does the actual injection, but I wipe it with alcohol..so I can say WE..lol)  im imagining its doing its thing in there. I would love to get more than 7 eggs this time (both other cycles got 7), but reality says Im a year older than I was last time, so it will in all likelyhood be less. I can hope though, you never know.

I had planned on losing a bunch of weight before this IVF..I did lose a little. went from 79kgs to 76kgs, which is the weight I was the first time we did IVF. Id still like to drop a few more, but I just seem to be too lazy. The weather has been pretty hideous lately, but today the sun is shining..perhaps I will take a walk after I eat my lunch. You have to start sometime with new habits right?? Why is it that eating fruit & veg and doing lots of exercise sounds great in your head, but reality has you sitting on the couch eating a chocolate cookie..i need to pull out m finger and make my reality the same as my head

Ýesterday I had a call from my naturopath just to see how I was going. Today my accupuncturist called to see how I was going. Thats so nice. You don't get that from medical doctors.

Yesterday was busy..lol

AF arrived yesterday, so now Im on day 2 of my new cycle..I was supposed to star the pill day one..but I completely forgot..I was also supposed to call my nurse..forgot about that too..whoops..does this mean I have pre preggo brain??LOL

I got my blood test results yesterday and the report said normal for vitamin D, but reading the actual report, I am mildly deficient. My results are 40, but it says the minimum is 50 and ideal is greater than 75. I'm going to assume my specialist only read normal and didn't read the rest as Vit D is important for fertility. Luckily I was seeing my naturopath yesterday, so she has organised some high potency Vit D for me..the shop is out of it of course, but they should have it in stock Friday.

Also yesterday i got my letter saying Im due for a pap smear, so Ive booked that in for 3 weeks (oh boy..) so will get her to retest my Vit D and make sure its gone up.

Ok, thats about it..Id better go call my nurse!

New cycle!

I just had my RE consult..5 minutes on the phone and its going to cost me $80!!! cripes..grr.
anyway, there's good news and bad news..lets get the bad over first..one of my tests came back negative..or positive..whichever way means I have the problem..I have factor 5 leiden which is a blood clotting issue. Its inherited and can cause miscarriages.
good news is that it can be treated during pregnancy, so we are back in with a chance. He said it wasn't definate that thats the problem, but its the only thing that showed up, so hes going to treat that.
So I'm cycling July as expected with EPU July 16th. He decided hes going to use ICSI and..wait for it...do a double transfer!! He has been always against doing 2..so its interesting that hes changed his mind! I should get my period next week and start the pill then.

So I just messaged my accupuncturist to get some accu in before I cycle..hes away June 9 to 30th..I think hes been away at some point in each cycle ive ever done..lol.

Having an actual date should help my resolve to drop a few kilos. 6 weeks to go, I should be able to lose at least 3kgs, hopefully 4, but i guess it will depend what the pill does to me..sometimes i bloat, sometimes i don't.

Due Date :(

Today was the due date for our first FET baby that we lost at 10 weeks. Sleep well little one.

infertility recap

 I just had my third MC almost 3 weeks ago..and tommorow is the due date for the baby we MC'd last year. Ugh..I have been TTC #1 for 6 years..its getting tiresome waiting. I thought id do a recap of my journey so far.

 DH and I started TTC in 2006 when I was 34. Before that we had been NTNP for a few years. I figured out about ovulation and assumed during NTNP we had just missed the egg each time.

Then in 2008 just as I was starting to investigate with a doctor why it wasn't happening, i finally got a BFP. We were thrilled, but MC at 6 weeks. We figured it happened once, it would happen again..even the doctor told me youre extra fertile after a MC. So by 2010 and still nothing I decided it was due time to investigate..the doc sent me for bloodwork..all was fine. I was sent to a Gyno who performed a lap/hyst and whatever the other surgery is and she discovered BOTH my fallopian tubes were blocked! She recommended because of my age to go straight to IVF.

So we did our first round of IVF, got 7 eggs, 4 fertilized, one grew to 5 days and was transferred. By this time it was December and the time I should have had my blood test the clinic was closed..I used a pee stick and got a super faint line, but by the time the clinic re opened and i had the blood test it was negative. We tried again..this time my stim dose was doubled to get more eggs, but once again we got 7 eggs..this time only 3 fertilized. One was transferred at day 3 and 2 others were frozen. BFN..so we did the first frozen embryo..it worked. Praise the lord we were pregnant. We saw the heartbeat at 6 weeks. We kept it pretty much to ourselves, a handful of people knew, but at 10 weeks I woke up with a huge gush of blood. I knew in my heart it was over. I found it frustrating when people would try to tell me it was ok because they and their sisters cousins all bled dramatically and their babies were fine. I knew mine wasn't.

3 months later we used the last frozen embryo..it also worked. Praise the lord..third time lucky..this baby would be our little miracle..I knew it would be,.lots of people told me they knew this was it for us..we saw the heartbeat at 6 weeks..the heartrate was a lot stronger in this one..the HSG was higher...but at 8 weeks I had spotting..again I knew it was over..people again told me it would be fine..but i got a scan and there was no longer a heartbeat..I bled it out the next day.

So here I am still..3 pregnancies..no babies..we will try IVF one more time. I just met with a naturopath yesterday who is going to do her best to help. I see my IVF doctor on the 30th..He will do some testing to see if theres a medical reason why our babies miscarry. I so hope its just something simple and can be fixed!

Beta #2- 22DPO

My nurse didn't tell me exact, she said Its Just over 2500..that works out good for the doubling time. I used one of those doubling time calculators and it said about 38 hours.

Thats it for my nurse..she said I will have to book in a scan and then get the results for my doctor..it seems a bit sad that they don't get to go the whole journey with you. I know their job is to get you pregnant, but I guess over the whole IVF journey your nurse is there, then once you acheive pregnancy, they drop away and move on to their next patients. It must make them sad too, especially when they see someone for over a year..well I will be sending her my scans etc..I don't know if they want them, but my congratulations letter said they are required to find out results etc..so i figure I'll send them in.

Ive been feeling a bit horrible on and off the last couple of days..part of me is YAY..but the rest of me is..ugh..if its like this already..whats it going to be like in a few weeks..lol. Ive been making myself go to the gym..I modify what I do..and skip a lot of the machines..but i know if i don't go, then i'll spend the next 8 months on the couch becoming potato like in every way!