Monday, April 25, 2011


So today Im on day 6 of stims..all my meds are on the bench along with my sharps container and my BFF shows up without calling first..thats ok, she knows im doing IVF. She is on her way home from a camping trip with her family. So she comes in and I make her a cup of coffee right next to all my meds and she proceeds to go on and on and on about her camping trip and who did what blah blah blah.

Do you think she asked how I was doing? nope.. she would have seen the meds, she knows we are injecting..buts all about her. I feel a bit sad she never acknowleges anything to do with IVF..when i have bought it up shes all fake smiles and changes the topic back to herself as fast as she can.

Ive known her since we were 10..but Im not feeling the love these days..I don't imagine we will ever not be friends, but I just feel like shes never interested in anything I have to say. I phoned her a while back and pretty much never got a word in..she never even asked why I was calling (We don't use the phone much these days, facebook chat is cheaper and easier!!)

Id like to tell her shes being self absorbed..but should a friend have to do that?? If we are friends, shouldn't she be interested in whats happening in my life?? Maybe its just hormones, but its really bugging me today. Do you guys think im being self absorbed for thinking shes not interested in my life?


Babette said...

Nope,I don't think you are being selfish. I think I may have been a bit pissed off too! But I can also say, maybe she doesn't quite know how to talk to you about it. I still think she should have asked, but that's my hormones talking. lol!

I am OK said...

Not, not selfish, just real.

Friends have no idea what it is like to go through all this - they have no idea (thank goodness, I wouldn't wish it on anyone - really) I am sure some friends just don't know what to say, so they don't say anything at all.

I hope your bestie smartens up though- since you were 10, that is hard to do in this world.

Good luck - you are certainly not alone.