29 weeks!

wow, time sure flies. I abandoned my blog. Id like to say it was something simple like forgetting..but I think mostly its because I didn't want to jinx our pregnancy..yes I know..as if writing about it can jinx it..but its like knocking on wood..i do it..i know it does nothing..but i do it anyway..lol
 so we hit 29 weeks yesterday..that means 11 to go til due date..crazy. Last week we put  a cot, change table and swing on layby. Ive sucumbed to buying a few bits of adorable baby girl clothing that were on 50% off, though ive gone for 6 to 12 month sizes as we have a lot of newborn and newborn to 3 months thanks to generous friends! but other than that, we haven't done much at all. I guess we are still in denial.

Im feeling pretty good. Ive put on 5.5kgs (about 12 pounds), so im feeling happy with that. I feel a lot more movement the last week or so, but its still not as much as i expected. I'm pretty much over going to the loo every 5 minutes. She seems to always be sitting on my bladder. I have been known to try to physically pick her up off it..but she always goes back. i guess its nice to sit on. Other than that, i really have no complaints. I get the occasonal heartburn and aches and pains.

DH is going to South Africa in a few weeks as his brother is getting married..Im happy for him to go, but i do worry about getting stuck in bed or on the couch like an upsidedown turtle while he is gone. Im sure it will be fine..i could always go stay with my parents if i need to. I have no idea when im going to finish work..everyone keeps asking me..but right now i feel fine to keep working.

A tale of peesticks

I started feeling queasy around 5 days past transfer (10dpo) also sore boobs, but put it down to progesterone. I started testing and had a faint faint line. didnt show DH as I knew he'd not see it. but figure it could still have been trigger.
tested day 11, very slightly darker, still almost impossible to see, showed DH and he could see it, but we thought its still possible to be trigger or just evap
day 12 about the same as 11, but did a second one in evening, was darker.
this went on, the morning the same as the night before, but then darker in evening until the day before beta day (15). I didn't test beta day (16) as I knew we would get a BFP. I got my blood taken at 10am and waited..and waited..
Finally at 3.30pm my nurse calls. Im so sorry, but your test is negative. I'm in disbelief. I tell her Ive been getting lines and she says, your test came back as 3, its definately negative. It sounds like the embryo tried to implant, but its failed. She tells me to make an apoointment with doctor to sort out using the frozen embryo.
Im in shock, 2 minutes later DH rings to see if shes called yet. I burst into tears on the phone and we are both in shock. He comes home early from work and we sit numbly looking at the pee sticks we have..I take another one and its about the same as the one we had the day before. I cried on and off all the rest of the day and night. I took the night off work as I knew i was just a mess.

 I prayed to god to take away the pain and the yearning to be parents as it was pretty clear we weren't destined to have babies. I dreamt I was sitting crying being held by Jesus (I am not a religeous person, i don't go to church etc) being told it will be ok.
The next day I felt good and I took another pee stick and it was darker!!! I sent the pic to my nurse and asked her what she thought and should I have another blood test. she wrote back that it was weird and it won't hurt to get another one done. She emailed me a pathology slip and i took it to get blood at 9.30am and waited..and waited. Here's a pic of the sticks

Finally at 4.15pm she calls. She sounds grim. She says your test results were dramatically different to wednesdays. Then she tells me shes getting the lab to run wednesdays again and compare them and see if they can see whats happened. I just butt in with what was my number..it is 547!! I definately am pregnant. She is so appalled at how wrong they got it and says shes so glad I kept testing. So im 4 and a bit weeks, super early and anything can happen, but for now I am pregnant!
My nurse said she will tell me what happened when she finds out. But I have no idea if I get another blood test or what happens next, I'm assuming she will tell me on Monday.

yep..BFP!!

woo hoo, i tested again today and while its still a faint line, its certainly darker than yesterday! I told hubby who simply grinned. We know its super early, we know anything could happen, but its so good to have got to Step 2.

Step 1- Have IVF
Step 2 Get pregnant
Step 3 grow baby to full term
Step 4 give birth to live healthy baby
Step 5 grow baby into child
Step 6 Grow child to Adult

DH told me he saw my mum down the street and he told her we got a light line..lol. She will be excited!

I may have a BFP!

I'm 10dpo or 5dp5dt in IVF speak..lol. I decided to pee on a stick and got a faint second line. Its possible its the trigger..its possible its an evap, but it gives me hope. Ive been feeling a bit queasy and had some sharp poke type pains in my belly. Please God, let this be our time!

PUPO!

 We transfered one perfect blastocycst and froze one. 2 others are being watched, but hes not confident they will be good enough to freeze. RE said the 2 blasts are the best quality we've had so far, so fingers crossed! He agreed with us going for one only. He said hes had people transfer 2 of this quality and end up with triplets. I honestly wouldn't mind twins, but the risks for their health and our safety and finances make us prefer one baby at a time.

So I am now Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. I have already had a nap, which i never do. I woke up roasting hot, i took my temp and it was 37.07, which is a bit hot. My normal post O temp has reached 37.05 before, but its usually high 36's. Im sure it will be fine, but theres a tiny bit of a worrywart in me that worries I cooked the embryo..arghh. I'm going to go look at fertility friend charts and see how high people's temps have gotten! edited, its fine..saw some charts with 37.9. worrying has ceased.

 I had accupuncture before (accupuncturist forgot to tell his wife he had an 8am client, so she decided to be nice and let him sleep in and so he was still in bed when we got there..lol) and after.I bought some walnuts and I'm laying down. Thats all im doing. whatever will be will be!

Eggs and Embryos, Oh My!

I had egg pick up yesterday. 8 eggs! One more than both other cycles so thats very exciting. I hoped and prayed that at least 6 of them would fertilize and I got my wish. 6 embryos growing in a petrie dish. I will be having a 5 day transfer on Saturday. Just have to decide if we will go with a single or a double transfer. My doc has always said only one, two doesn't give you any more chances. twins have complications..but now he says oh lets try 2..but we have the fear of two now..we have a few days to decide~!

scan details

Had my follicle count scan yesterday. This is really just for myself to remember incase I lose the bit of paper with it on.
 Uterus is anteverted, endometium is proliferate and 13.6mm thick
Left ovary has 6 follicles, 18, 20 , 14, 15, 12 and too small to bother with
Right ovary has 4 follicles, 16,11,22 and too small. technician said there were lots of other tiny ones.

So by that I should get 8 eggs at retrieval on Monday morning at 10am..have to be at the hospital at 8.30am, I moaned about it being so early, but my lovely nurse said that she put me last and thats actually the latest..how nice that she knows I don't do mornings heehee. I just had my ovi drel trigger shot. Did it myself as DH is at work. Iced it up and it was easy. I took advice and injected slowly and it barely stung at all..I will definately try that when it comes to using the clexane.

Had a cuddle of a beautful 3 week old baby boy today. Im hoping i rubbed enough baby dust onto myself..hee hee